What Happens in Eden
Before bras and blow dryers,
before mascara and diets,
I wish to be a mermaid.
Naked from the waist up,
tail of a fish,
slippery scales winking
in pools of mercury.
When I swim
the flap of my tail
propels me like a jet.
I weave between pink and white coral,
play tag with electric eels.
I control the sailors
with my soft moans,
like a whale’s song.
I would be a mermaid,
I heard they soothe the sick
lord over the weather
Perform magic tricks for sea anemones.
But that was before.
Before my best friend tells me
to put on a shirt.
Suddenly, my hot face
tingles with red shame.
Before my gym teacher
says I have nice legs
so why should I
cover them
with a tail?
Before my Dad
stares at my chest and
tells me not to worry,
“More than a handful
is a waste.”
Before I
Hold my breath
in a chlorinated pool,
(not even in an ocean),
and come up gagging.
I get it now;
before, after.
I would have chosen mermaid,
but that ship sailed without me.
Left me wondering
whether to warn
my little sister
not to bother.